Sid: I have on the telephone Shirley Smith and I’m speaking to her at her home at North Little Rock, Arkansas.  In June of 1995 she got a death sentence from the doctor she was diagnosed with 3^rd stage ovarian cancer, 6 months to live. Nothing medical science could do.  She began the battle for her life God told her she had to do 3 things, she had to not be in unbelief, she had to stand in faith for her healing. The second thing was she had to rebuild her body and her immune system with proper nutrition. The third she had to reconcile with her son-in-law if she wanted to live. And then she received a mandate to daily come before the Lord and participate in communion the Lord’s Supper. And you began to do this and God showed you Shirley that there were areas in your life you had not released to God. You had not allowed Him to even come in and heal you it was kind of like a spiritual pride and when He began to point these things out to you He directed you towards communion and you found a new power in communion that you’d never seen before tell me about it.

Shirley: Yes okay.  Well one day while the Lord was speaking to me about things in those rooms and I explained about yesterday and I’d never allowed Him to go into. He began to tell me about some people in my life and mainly it was a mother-in-law and I had explained rejection there from my in-laws and I said “Lord I’ve already forgiven many of these things you’re telling me I’ve already forgiven her I’ve already talked to her. I’ve already told her that I was sorry for this and for my wrong response. And the Lord replied to me and said “Yes you have forgiven these but you have never released them.” And then I’m thinking about what He said “Release them.” And the Lord spoke again He said “Do you still feel pain when you think of this situation of this person of the comment that was made to you?” And I said “Yes I do.” He said “Then you have not released it.”  And I said “Lord I don’t know how to release it if I knew how I would how can I do that how can I release them?” And the Lord and at this moment I’m getting frustrated because I wasn’t get a quick answer and I said “How can I, how can I get a quick release how can I do that?” And I had the communion cup kind of up in the air when I was asking this question and the Lord just profoundly and simply said to me You can release them through the power of the communion cup in your hand.  I suddenly had a revelation of a power of the blood of Jesus and the communion.  I was so thrilled I quickly said “Wonderful God that will be so easy to do I want to do this.” Okay listen with the revelation of what you just said to me that through the power of the communion cup I can release everything to You. I release everything through the faith in your blood represented in this communion cup.”  And I was shocked because the Lord said to me “No, you have to tell me exactly and specifically what you released and explain it to Me.” And you know I was back at square 1 and so through that point on I experience very deep dealings again and painful memories and I just began to just sob out those things but I released and as these hurts would come up and painful memories would come up I would just take the communion cup and I’d say “Father through the power of Your shed blood” and you know the thorns that was put into His head that was the healings of our memories and I said “Lord the chastisement of my peace my peace of mind was upon you and through the power of this cup I release every hurt, every pain” and I began to name the person, I would name what they said to me the rejecting words they said to me.” And when I did that chains of the past began to break off of me.

Sid: You’d think that after all of these years after recognizing and understanding the word to forgive what you did that you wouldn’t be dealing with all of these roots but you’re telling me they really were there.

Shirley: The roots were there and many people and things like to mention people in ministry too because they just forgive and they go on with their hurts because they don’t know what else to do or because they were like me too much pride to even admit they even have a problem.

Sid: Tell me about one of the things God said you had to do and that has to do with forgiving your son-in-law. He said if you wanted to live you had to do this.

Shirley: Right that’s what I did I just began to name the things he had said the things that he had done the last 20 years the ongoing thing with the whole family and as I named those released those those chains broke.  And you know finally at the end of the 5 months it was 5 months total I was at sister Gwen’s I had come to my metamorphosis and my rooms were cleaned the chains were broken and I was released to return back to my home. And when I came back to my home the first thing that I did I came back to my doctor for my blood test and my doctor was in shock and he went “What happened to you?” And I said “You wouldn’t believe it if I told you.” And this is my gynecologist not my surgeon not the oncologist I’ve not seen him since.  But he said “Well tell me!” and I said “Okay I’ll tell you so I told him everything I just told you and he was so overwhelmed he went “I believe Shirley I believe and I have heard of this but I never knew anybody that it had ever happened to and you are my first miracle patient.”

Sid: Let me read to you Mishpochah because I have in my hand and I might add this is in her booklet that has her entire testimony of how she was healed. A letter from her Gynecologist Dr. Dale Fuller it’s dated June 15, 2000 and this is what he said this is on his stationary:

Shirley is a gynecologic patient of mine and has been for some time and she first presented to my office as a new patient in 1991.  In June of ’95 Shirley developed ovarian cancer of which surgery was performed. Stage 3 cancer was found as well as cancer that had spread to the large and small intestines as well as other structures. Shirley declined to receive chemotherapy following the surgery as I advised her. Shirley decided to rely on her faith for healing of this cancer. As Shirley’s OBGYN I have kept a close watch over her by ordering regular annual blood tests and physical examinations. Each test has proven the miraculous healing that has existed in her for the past 5 years.  There is no medical doubt that she should have died years ago with the spread of cells and conditions left in her body. In June 2000 she underwent a series of blood work and tests including an MRI to rule out any evidence of reoccurrence of cancer. All tests were negative revealing Shirley to be clean and clear of any evidence of cancer in her body. To this day I am grateful to still call her my miracle lady.

I mean talk about documentation Shirley.

Shirley: Yes.

Sid: But let me ask you this question, when God took you through these hurts were they very painful?

Shirley: Extremely, extremely the roots.

Sid: And as you prayed over communion and released each one specifically did you feel them leave?

Shirley: Yes I did, yes I did it was like a chain breaking. You know I didn’t even know I head the chain there. I mean I knew I had bondages yes I never dreamed I had that much bondage and that much you know it was really taking out of the peace of mind. We’re not looking at oppressed things and suppressed things and we can bring…and I learned this in psychiatric nursing but it’s easier to analyze somebody else than to analyze your own self we can push them into our subconscious mind and that’s what I had done to deal with that.

Sid: But let me ask you just a bit about your son-in-law there was a point where you actually wrote out a blessing for him explain that.

Shirley: Yes I did well let me just say first that we have made peace with each other we now have expressed our love, our respect and our acceptance for one another. And later after this reconciliation the Lord instructed me to speak a blessing over their marriage. Well I had never done anything like this before and I had really felt at loss of how to do it and I said “Lord well I’ve blessed them for years.” He said “Yes but they have never heard you do it they have never heard you say those words.” And so I said “Okay.” I began to try to write up you know a blessing and it didn’t sound like anything. I read scriptures I read books on blessing, nothing fit the situation so I was frustrated and so I said “Lord now listen I want to be obedient and I want to do what You told me to do but if You don’t help me I can’t do it I don’t know how to do this so please help me.” And this is another… I mean God orchestrated it was a supernatural thing again my whole story is supernatural this is one of the best parts. Suddenly when I told the Lord I can’t do it You’re going to have to do it for me or help me my anointing or an unction fell on me that just grab a piece of paper and pencil and I began to write.” This did not come from my mind, I repeat this did not come from my mind this came out of my spirit. And I was shocked at what I was writing and this is what happened. My pen just flew across the paper and I was invoking many beautiful blessings and I was amazed while I watched this and I began to recognize so much of so much of what I was writing there was scripture.  And I thought “Oh what an awesome blessing because this clearly expresses my heart. So when I finished this beautiful thing I shared it with my husband. The Lord said to me “I want you to present that to them.” Well when I got ready to present this to my daughter and son-in-law the Lord orchestrated this so beautifully I didn’t know how He’d worked with him. And so when I was telling him how it happened he said to me now what exactly, when exactly did you receive this? And I told him and when I told him this it was at 6:00 Sunday afternoon my son-in-laws face lite up and he said “Oh I can’t believe this” because at that same hour the pastor had said “If there’s anyone here who needs to release themselves from someone they tried to forgive but they just can’t get free I want you to come to the front and let me pray for you.” He said “At 6:00 you’re getting this blessing over us he said I went to the front and for the first time I got a complete freedom.”

Sid: I have on the telephone Shirley Smith I’m speaking to her at her home in North Little Rock, Arkansas. We found out on the last few days that she was diagnosed with third stage ovarian cancer. Her abdomen was filled with malignant tumors 6 months to live nothing medical science could do and God spoke to her and said “Shirley if you’ll do these  things I’ll heal you.

1. You must stand in faith for your healing.
2. You must rebuild your body and your immune system with proper nutrition
3. You must reconcile with your son-in-law if you want to live.

And then she was given a mandate to daily participate in communion. And Shirley you went to your friend’s house who was saturating you in prayer and when you got there she told you something not knowing what God had told you the day before. What did she say?

Shirley:  Well when I arrived at Sister Gwen’s house the first thing she did was offer me the holy communion and she had never done that before and I’d been in her home many times and she’d been in mine and we just never thought to take communion but she did.  She said “Shirley I want to serve you communion.” And I thought that oh this looks like a confirmation coming here and so she did.  And then she took the table and she set it beside the bedroom door and she said “Now honey I’m going to put this here and you can take communion daily if you want to.”  That confirmed my instruction from the Lord.

Sid: You told me that you actually… that the Lord allowed you to look into the invisible world and see exactly what you were dealing with that was manifesting itself as cancer tell me what you saw.

Shirley: Right in yesterday’s testimony I was talking about the 3 things that God said. And when He told me that I would settle my fate you know for this healing. Well I’m thinking “Gosh you know” I said “Lord let’s reason this out because You know my faith level I know how to fight but my faith level Lord I don’t think it’s high enough to fight in that realm of cancer.” And the Lord said to me I …this is so beautiful it was music to my ears “I will accept your faith level where it is if you will just use it and I said “Okay I can do that.” And then I further apologized I said “I’m just so sorry that I don’t have big faith for cancer.” And you know we think that cancer is a fatal thing and the Lord responded to me and His voice came like thunder in my ear and He said to me “Cancer is not big I am big!” And I went “Uh.” Just the reality hit me that no cancer is not big God is bigger” and when I saw in a vision or when I saw in the realm of the spirit I saw this monstrous thing in front of me just like over me and it hit when the Lord said that it hit the floor. And when it did I put my foot on it and I said “You are under my feet and I trample and I tread on you in the name of the Lord and you stay under my feet.” And that was a spirit of fear that had told me in my mind so many hours and days here. And that’s what I saw in the realm of the spirit. So when I was at Sister Gwen she confirmed that I was going to daily communion.  You know when I was upset again there was areas in my life that God had not deeply dealt with yet so I was fearful of communion.  But I loved the Lord with all of my heart and it’s always my desire to please Him so I just said “Lord I’m just going to step over my struggle with fear here to obey you” and so I did. And I met, and oh it was so beautiful just a few weeks later the miracle began to unfold. And the Holy Spirit and truth He is the Spirit of truth. Truth met me daily at the communion table and once again the Lord and I began to come into an intimate relationship on daily basis. And I was brought face to face with my healer and my revealer. And one day the Lord asked me a question and He said “Are you ready to allow me to go into the rooms of your heart where I’ve never been, the rooms that you have never given me entrance to. And a different truth at that point had begun to dawn on me. And I began to realize that He wanted to heal me emotionally as well as physically so I just quickly whispered “Yes Lord let’s go in.” I embraced it and you know I know the potter’s wheel I’ve been on the potter’s wheel many times through the years and I’ve learned to trust His hand. Brother Sid I know that God is always on my side and whatever He works in my heart and in my life is always for good and my flesh will scream many times in the shaping and breaking and the remolding but my spirit is always edified my soul is always released. And so I knew I was on the Potter’s wheel so you know I just embraced that and I said “Lord do Your work in me.” And the Lord began to speak to me and you have legal doors in your life and I’ve covered you with grace and mercy many times but now Satan has come to take your life and His hands have been tied now because of my open doors in my life. Because when we refuse to forgive it ties the hands of God Matthew 18:37 declares this. And so I knew that I really had to yield completely everything to the Lord. And then while He was talking to me He brought back to me about the rooms of my heart that He had not had entrance into and I knew what He was talking about. And I want to share a vision here about the rooms of my heart. I sat daily for 3 months going through actually 5 total but 3 really intense going through this daily communion. And confession and repentance and healing but He said to me “I want to go into those rooms.” And so here was the vision “About 4 years before this attack of cancer hit me I was in intercession and prayer and I went into a vision and in the vision Holy Spirit said to me “I’m going to take you on a tour through your spiritual house.” And I said “Well okay.” And in the vision we began to walk through the house and He took me in rooms that had this exquisitely ornate furniture it was just carved so beautiful of finest of woods like mahogany and pecan and you know oak and ebony and I was just very impressed with all that I saw and I said “Oh Lord that is just so beautiful.” And so we went through many rooms like this and then He took me into a room and there was a chair that had been partially carved and the back was carved and the arm was carved along the side was carved and the chisel and the hammer lay on the seat and I looked at the seat and I looked at that and I went well you know Lord you didn’t finish it what happened You didn’t finish carving this? And the Lord just responded to me and said “You never allowed me to finish that you drew back from Me.” And I went “I don’t understand.” And the Lord said “These carvings that you see on this wood you know we’re broken vessels this carving you see on this furniture here is My deep dealings in your life. My dealings meaning My corrections, My instructions My breaking, My molding you by changing your life changing your heart, changing your motives, changing your ministry these are deep deep dealings where I work deeply in your heart to put My nature in you.” Now I went “Okay wonderful.” So we went down the hallway and we went past some of these doors in these rooms and I said I’m waiting for Him to go in and He said “No.” And I said “What’s in that room?” And the Lord said “I’ve never been in there you haven’t allowed Me to go in there.” And I said “Okay and we walked down the hallway and there was another door and I’m waiting for Him to go in and He didn’t go in and I said “Well what’s in this room?” And He said “I’ve never been in there I haven’t been in this one either you have never allowed Me to go in this room.” And I said “Okay and so we walked on down the hallway and we came to this huge room an awesome room like a big ballroom with like marble or onyx floor. And in this room if I can describe this where you can comprehend this is maybe you’ve had an experience like this I don’t know but I saw the shekinah glory of God and I’ve seen this many times but and it’s always like a white iridescent mist and it had a beams of light gold and silver flashing through it. And I could see the forms of people in this glory cloud or this shekinah glory or in this mist. I couldn’t tell you know I couldn’t recognize anybody by the face but I could see that there were many in this and I said “Now Lord what’s going on here and what is this?” And the Lord said “This is my Glory and I’m going to bring you into that.” And that was the end of the vision. So I realized and God began to say to my “You know I’m going to change you.” And He said to me “When I’m finished with you I’m going to bring you into this glory.”  And that’s what the Lord did and so it was so wonderful I said “Okay Lord let’s go into those rooms because I desired to walk into the glory.”  And so the Lord began to open the doors of these rooms and I knew that behind those doors lay a lot of pain and a lot of hurt.

Sid: You had told me that you were raised in a house that had a lot of abuse.

Shirley: Right, right and so I knew I mean I had dealt with a lot of that I really had through the years but there were roots this is important this is a key.  We can deal with a tree we can cut the limbs off we can even cut the trunk off but if you don’t get the roots out it will grow back.  And actually that’s what had happened to me I had cut down many things I had taken many things out of my life but I never got to the roots and the root of these was abuse and rejection and hurts that had been very deep in my heart. And behind these doors the image roots were many people that included family, it includes friends other Christians brothers and sisters. And even some ministers and pastors where I had been wounded deeply. And so many things had really been collected over the years and they had just stayed buried you know deep in my heart. And I have to make a confession here and I think it’s important for your listeners and for others that often maybe listening as in ministry, listen to my testimony I want to say I know that I’m not the only one guilty of this but I had a high profile in ministry most of my life. I came in there early in my early 20’s and God’s used me in many many I wore many hats.  He’s used me in many different types of ministry and I’ve always had a high profile with TV and radio and etcetera and because of this I just refused to let anybody know that I had these problems you know deep in my heart and in my life. And actually I had a religious pride that held me…

Sid: Hold that thought Mishpochah we’re out of time…

Sid: I have on the telephone I’m speaking to her at her home in North Little Rock, Arkansas Shirley Smith. Shirley and her husband were missionaries they came back in June of 1995 from the jungles of South America. And she had her annual checkup and the surgeon found that she had 3^rd stage ovarian cancer. Her abdomen was filled with malignant tumors and there was nothing medical science could do. She had 6 months to live, 17 people in her family had died from cancer already. What about fear Shirley?

Shirley: Okay that’s a good question and I sure would love to give an answer because I like people to take courage of this. Number 1 let me just say this, 2^nd Timothy 1:7 says For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but power love and a sound mind.” In that verse he calls fear a spirit because he says “spirit of fear.” We know that we have authority in the name and dominion over spirits. We know that He has given us this power to tread on scorpions, adders, serpents, and that nothing of the enemy shall harm us. So it’s a spirit…

Sid: But Shirley it’s one thing to know that, it’s also one thing to proclaim that or preach it, but it’s another thing when it’s happening to you.

Shirley: Right it was happening to me I knew the scripture, I’ve acted on the scripture in the past many times in other situations I knew it worked so it was a weapon that I had. So… but I was in a weakened condition because of the devastation of my body and my mind this is why I was having to exert so much effort even to fight that very spirit. So this is how I fought it, the Holy Spirit at this time began to really speak to my heart and He said to me “You are going through the valley of the shadow of death.” He cautioned me in Proverbs 13:3 He gave me this scripture and said “Watch the words of your mouth.” “For he that keepeth the words of his mouth keepeth his life, but he that opens wide his lips shall have destruction.” And I knew that was a serious scripture He had given me and fully began to realize then what I had really is very serious and I had to be very careful about my words. Then He gave me Psalms 118 verse 17 and 18 to fight with which says: “I shall live and not die and declare the works of the Lord. He has chastened me sore but he has not given me over to death.” So I would fight with… was battling in the arena of my mind now not in my spirit it was in my mind. I knew that Satan was coming for my words because God had given me this scripture to watch the words of my mouth so I knew he was coming for my words just like an angel came to Daniel, over in the book of Daniel. He said “The first day that you made supplication we heard you and now I have come for your words the Prince of Persia withstood me.” So I knew God was hearing me and I knew that I had to call upon the power of the angels to help put this thing through, my prayers through. So I’ve had many angel experiences also in the past and I’ve seen them work for me, I’ve seen them protect me, and I just know it works. So I begin to declare Isaiah 54:17 “That no weapon formed against me shall prosper,” none! “That this is the inheritance of the saints and my righteousness is of Him.” So I said “Lord I need you to help me now to put a guard over our gate, over my mouth.” When my body would jerk and convulse at the pain of my bed, my emotions of course would weaken and waiver but my faith never did. I still stood strong and I watched the word, it would be on the tip of my tongue the wrong thing I went “eh eh.!” I won’t say it, I won’t say it.

Sid: And about that time you received an invitation from a woman by the name of Gwen Shaw who is the founder of the End Time Handmaidens a women’s organization. She thought that if you went to her house she could really saturate you with prayer which was a wonderful thing and just before you got to here house God told you do 3 things.

Shirley: Hmm hm. Okay there was a lot that took place before I got to her house because I had a very powerful encounter with my oncologist. They called me back from the doctor’s office and they said “We want you to come in for your second treatment of chemo.” I said to her “I am not coming in for a second treatment, the first one almost killed me. I’ve already called the hospital and cancelled , I’ve called… cancelled my bed, cancelled the other doctor that’s going to administrate that” and she was very upset with me. She said “Well you’ll have to come in and speak with the oncologist about this.” I said “Wonderful give me an appointment with him.” So I went in and I began to speak with this doctor and the first thing… I knew this man was a very aggressive man and that he could manipulate me, try to manipulate me with fear and I hate that spirit. I was already warned with that thing so my daughter went with me. We prayed in his office before he ever came in while we were waiting against this type of thing. So the first thing he said when he came in he was very warm and very friendly and he said “Well how have you been? I want to tell you I just came from Mayo Clinic and we have discussed ovarian cancer there and the heads, the big heads Shirley, the big heads have said that the treatment, the best treatment for ovarian cancer is exactly what I gave you. Now listen Shirley the big heads said this.” Now what I’m proceeding this thing is the medical gods. He says “The big heads say that I have given you the best treatment” and I said “Yes perhaps you did and it almost killed me. I laid at deaths door for 9 days while you were gone to your meeting and your associate put me back in the hospital.” He went “Oh, oh, oh” when I listened “Shirley that’s just part of it, that’s just part of the treatment.” Then he said “You’re going to have to take this second treatment” he said “I’m going to give you a lighter dose and I’m going to give you a second treatment” and I said “No you’re not. I’m not taking another treatment.” He became very angry with me and he put his hand on his hip and he raised his voice and he pointed his finger at me and he said “Listen to me. Listen to me Shirley! If you don’t take this chemo you’re going to die!” Well you know maybe my flesh rose up these were fighting words to me. I said “Wait, wait, wait! Let me explain to you, you cannot scare me with death and let me explain to you why, but I want to ask you one question first. Did you believe that the Bible is the word of God and it is true? First do you believe that?” He thought a minute and he hesitated and he went “Yes, yes I do.” I said “Okay I just want to establish you if we are getting here” and I said I want to ask you a question now I said “I really want to tell you something.” I said “Let me give you a scripture of where my stand is on death.” I said “The Bible says ‘That precious in the eyes of the Lord is the death of His saints.’ And the Bible says ‘That absence from the body is present with the Lord.’ That means I step out of this body into my glorified body.” He went “Wait a minute” I said “No you wait I’m not finished.  The Bible says that ‘It is appointed unto man once to die then after that the judgment.’ Now listen only God knows the appointed time because it’s appointed unto man once to die, it is an appointed time and you are not God and you cannot tell me I have 6 months because you don’t know that. Only God knows my appointed time.” He started to speak and I went “Wait I’m not finished I’m going to give you another scripture. The Bible says ‘That I am going to live and not die and declare the works of the Lord. He has chastened me sore but He has not given me over unto death.’”

Sid: Shirley you are the devil’s worst nightmare he’s getting nowhere with you.

Shirley: Absolutely. Oh the Spirit of the Lord took over in me at that moment. Those words…and scripture just flowed out of me. He was speechless and I said “Wait I want to tell you, listen to me. Listen to me! Bottom line I don’t know what you’re doing but I know what I’m doing. ‘I am going to live and not die and declare the works of the Lord,’ and let me add my part to this doctor I’m going to return to the nations where God has called me to teach His word. Listen to me don’t you ever ever let those words of death come out of your mouth again! Don’t you ever speak death over me again! You speak life to me!” I left his office and I’ve not seen him since.”

Sid: (Chuckling) Okay the Lord instructed you 3 things that you had to do.

Shirley: Right, okay Sister Gwen calls and now my confrontation with the doctor is over and I’ve gone to Sister Gwen’s house. Sister Gwen she’s my spiritual missionary mom for many years and God has called me to her many times and she’s always impacted my life and I’m thinking this is one more time that God is giving me another divine appointment and God’s going to change some things in my life. So when I got there she knew nothing about my mandates and my commandments. Before I went, the night before I went I was in prayer and I began to pray and I said “Lord you know I just want to please You. I know that my life is Your’s and I just want to please You and so You tell me what to do.” So this is what I heard Him say, audibly God spoke this to me, there’s been a few time in my life that God has spoken audibly and this is one of those times. This is during night time battle and I heard the voice of the Lord in an audible form and He said “If you want to leave you have to reconcile with your son-in-law.” I thought about that and He said I’m going to give you 3 commandments:

1. You have to reconcile with your son-in-law
2. You have to change your diet and rebuild your body with nutrition
3. You have to stand on your faith
4. I’m giving you a mandate to come to the communion table

So to go back and explain about each one of those things was God said to me “You have to reconcile your son-in-law” I thought “Oh Lord I have tried that many times and it has never worked, I never got any response from him.” I felt like “Lord that’s like a death sentence itself because he has refused to reconcile. The Lord said to me “IF YOU WANT TO LIVE YOU RECONCILE!” I said “Okay Lord I have to believe that You’re going to work in his heart…

Sid: We’re out of time. Hold that thought

Shirley: Okay.

Sid: But I’ve got to repeat that sentence again. God said to Shirley “If you want to live you must reconcile.” Powerful words